A Fresh New Start

Hello my lack of lovely viewers!

My name is Natalie Steed. Welcome to my story. It will probably sound very familiar to you due to the fact that I am a very average 26 year old female. I have a stable mundane desk job, a wonderful husband, a lazy suburban life, and I know the ins and outs of Yo-Yo dieting. 
Eating healthy has always been.... I want to say hard for my family, but what I should say is... non existent. My mom was a wonderful cook when I was younger. I'm talking juicy fat roasts with mashed potatoes and thick salty gravy, warm buttery rolls, cheesy baked funeral potatoes, and iceberg salad with Ranch dressing. Then top if off with either cake and ice cream, homemade pie, cookies or pretzel Jello with whipped cream... you know, the typical Utah meal. 
Now, I am not bashing on mom or her home cooked meals because the truth is I cherish those times all together with my family of 13, not to mention spouses or grand kids. But that is part of the problem isn't it? My emotional attachment to food and not to mention a bad habit of over eating AND indulging on the wrong things, so by the time I learned that it all catches up to you, well.. it was a little too late. 
Once I was a bit older my mom had to work full time to support our family and all the comforting, delicious meals practically vanished which meant I had to start fending for myself!! Outrageous! I had been spoiled with a chef and now I had no idea how to cook for myself. Dinners turned into cereal or Top Ramen until I was old enough to drive which lead to Wendy's and Taco Bell. Which has pretty much been my life ever since. Except now it is a bit more "refined" in taste, such as Cafe Rio and Zupas. 
Who has ever decided to change their life, head straight to the store, buy $200 worth of fruits and veggies just to let it rot in the fridge will you chomp down a burger and fries?? Yeah... I know how you feel.  I also know how it feels to look in the mirror and hate yourself for what you see, not buy any clothes because you feel you are too fat to be pretty in anything, but feel even uglier because you have no clothes to wear. I know how you feel when you walk down the street and wish you looked like every other girl that is passing, when you feel like things could be different if only you had a little more money or you weren't so busy. I know how it feels when you lay on your side and see that big ball of fat slouch on the ground and you hide it with your arms an pretend that where your skin meets your rib cage is your real stomach. You are not alone. I know how it feels. I know how it feels to berate and belittle yourself constantly in your mind. 
Well.. I am done! That is it! No amount of good food can make me forget how achingly depressing being unhealthy physically, mentally and spiritually feels everyday. And I will not abuse myself any longer.
Please join me on my fresh new start, my journey to find peace, health and happiness after a lifetime of bad habits and giving up time and again. Nat Fights Back! 

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