Life is the Messy Bits

I figured you guys wouldn't want to hear from me if I wasn't doing my best, but I realize it is life and this is my story. 

Turns out my ankle did put a much bigger skip in my step (pun intended) than I had originally thought. It is hard when you have a goal in mind and it feels like it has to be the whole package or nothing. I was doing really well for about a week, but I would forget that my ankle, even now, is not healed and even walking on it too much causes it to swell up like a balloon. I never got an X-ray because my Doctor said he would be surprised if it was broken due to the fact that when he gently touched it, it didn't hurt. He did tell me to get the X-ray to be safe though, but I didn't want to waste money. Now I think maybe I should have since it has become very sensitive and bruised and is still swelling. 

But anyway, like I was saying... I had a complete program in mind and when the going got tough I quit. I lost hope because I felt like if I couldn't be physically active then I wouldn't see results and now the result is a huge stomach ache from eating crap I missed out on (for only one freaking week). Also BTW I think I am allergic to supplements. Sounds weird I know, but every time I take them, no matter the brand or organic quality of it, my legs break out in rashes and my throat closes ever so slightly and I feel like breathing is a chore. I bring this up because I was taking pro-biotics and spirulina tablets to help cleanse, which I truly felt like was helping actually, but it still gave me the unwanted symptoms as well. An allergy test is soon to come on that one. 

I guess what I really need from you guys right now is a little love, encouragement and support. Ultimately I need to stop being so hard on myself, stop seeking for quick results or none at all and I need to remember that when I get off track, it's always a good time to start FRESH!